Hi! So much things have changed in the last few months. I always thought that I want to write a post about this and that, but I always ended up postpone it. So yeah, right now, I decided to sit down and writing. About these overload events that happened in my life.

So I am currently working at a small architects consultant since last month. It's so hard at the beginning. You know, architecture or designing, are my biggest challenge and insecurities during my time in university, and, that's my job now. It makes me so depressed, I feel like I'm running in the same place. I'm always jealous to people who can make that oh-so-beautiful design, but my brain is just, just, just stuck. It's not that I completely hate working because university is tough as well. The difference, is, if university days are full of events and exploding feelings, on the other hand, working is kind of... flat. I feel like I really really need something to be excited about. But you just go through on your routines. On the weekend I feel so tired and I just want to be on my bed all day. My working days are basically the combination of three types of days: 1. Hard and difficult days when your boss get angry because you make a lot of mistakes. 2. Lazy, laid back days when you are alone at the office 3. Super busy days when you have to work overnight. Strange is, I like busy days, I feel so important and needed. Yeah like that, I feel so unsure like, where am I heading to? So hard to stay positive... But the other big change is I can buy things on my own. I didn't say I can buy nicer things, but maybe that small things that gives us little pleasure. 

Well those are my lately days right now, and there's some more below, including my graduation and my new obsessions.

By the way, I edited my pictures in this post using free photoshop curves by my favorite food blogger, eatandtreats, called DRIZZLE, you can find it here.

Hi! As I'm enjoying my life right now, not being rushed to do anything like I'm used to, I'm gonna write how things are going on lately. This is random, but I tell you, this will include some seriously cool stuffs. Don't know if people normally so obsessed like me, but I'm the type of person who care so much about my things.

#1 TIDYING MY ROOM

Getting rid of papers and stuffs I don't need anymore. I love this activity a lot, it makes me feel peaceful. I think I have waited the time to let all this stuffs go since a while

#2 NEW PHONE

Ever since my old phone died last week (it suddenly turned off and can't be turned on again), I know I have to get the new one. I realized nowadays phone is more of a necessity. So I got a new phone, my first time using iPhone, and I feel like tons of my problems are solved.

#3 ALEXANDER MCQUEEN SHOES

How cool is that! I know neon is not the easiest color to be matched, but I think it can go well with neutral colors like black or white. My friends' aunt knows I love cool shoes and she gave it to me. I can't be more thankful.

#4 KYLIE LIPKIT

I never imagined that I will ever get this products. It's a huge hits out there and I've watched so many reviews about it. My country is far away from US. If I buy it from re-sellers, the prices are around twice of the original. if I buy it directly from the website, it can be more (because of the shipping fees, etc). Besides, I'm not sure whether it'll arrive safely or not. So I got this from my aunt who lives in the US, who happened to back to Indonesia this month! I'm super excited. I got three mattes : Candy K, Koko K, Exposed and three glosses : Like, Literally, So Cute.

#5 LUCKY CAT COFFEE & KITCHEN

Maybe I will be a little bit vulnerable on this post, I'm just trying to get out all this thought I have in mind. 

So, I'm doing my final project now and it comes really close to the end. I put so much hope and expectation on everything because this is my final semester. On people, on what I do. I want to end my four years university life with good memories. I've been dreaming of this grand ending with a lot of speech because this journey has never been short and easy. I should end this and say that I'm proud of everything. 

But that expectation makes me so fragile. I'm so easy to feel disappointed, betrayed, and brokenhearted. These past years has exceeded my expectation. But life goes on and I can't put everything in just a moment. What happened in the past will still be there. The present and the future are different than that.

WHEN YOU TRY YOUR BEST BUT YOU DON'T SUCCEED

WHEN YOU GET WHAT YOU WANT BUT NOT WHAT YOU NEED

WHEN YOU FEEL SO TIRED BUT YOU CAN'T SLEEP

STUCK IN REVERSE

WHEN THE TEARS COME STREAMING DOWN YOUR FACE

WHEN YOU LOSE SOMETHING YOU CAN'T REPLACE

WHEN YOU LOVE SOMEONE BUT IT GOES TO WASTE

COULD IT BE WORSE?

LIGHTS WILL GUIDE YOU HOME

AND IGNITE YOUR BONES

AND I WILL TRY TO FIX YOU

- FIX YOU, COLDPLAY

LOVE, S

June is a special month of the year for me as I always wish to go back to June. Whether it's because of my birthday, or holiday when all exciting things happens! This is gonna be quite long post. There are a lot of things I haven't written, especially this week I started to see and feel my favorite things again.

#1. I'm not really into green tea, but decided to try this Japanese green tea latte from esprecielo. It's very calming. Oh it's been a long time since I could enjoy my morning.

#2. My 21st birthday. A lot of things happened and suddenly I'm 21 already!

#3. Past months was a long, torturing, and hard journey. My feelings was numb and I didn't even recognize my life anymore. It's a relieve that I pass at the end, but somehow there's something that's missing from my life after all that experience. But I must say thank you to all the people that helped me during that period, I really feel I owe so much to them.

#4. Lately my mom busy shopped for our new apartment and she bought so much things from Ikea.

#5. I ate a lot of good food these days. Well, good food makes me happy! From french fries, Mille Crepes, Red Velvet cake (dominated by desserts of course). Didn't get chances to capture all of them, but last time, I went to my favorite pizza restaurant. Still think they have the best pizza and pasta in town. They are so yummmm :9.

Now I'm starting my internship for a month. I made it a point to swim as far as I can (read my last post here).

Love, S